I LOVE YOU, MUMMY((:

was just talking to lucas abt family
it really triggers me what family really means
esp having one that is there but not there.

i guess for many people who dont know
yeah i do have a complete family
one with a father mother and brother
however since young my father has been
kinda striked out of my life
its hard to put it all in words
but its like hes just there as a figurehead
but not someone who i can turn to
we totally shut each other out of
our own worlds.

and talking to lucas just makes me realise
that my mom has been that father and mother for me
im not bad mouthing my dad or anything
its just that if i shld give credits to my parents
it would be my mom(:

yes there are times we dont agree about certain things
there are times when i hate you for
making certain decisions for me
there are times when i really dread listening to ur nags
there are times where we are both stubborn
there are times when im rude to you
there are times i shut u out of what im doing
but ultimately
i really thank you for making that effort(:
and thanks for allowing me
to feel at least that little bit of element of what a
complete family is like((:
I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU<3

lucas: i really enjoyed those talks
and some how or rather i learnt from them
and it keeps me thinking about certain stuff
thanks for being that GREAT FRIEND((:
loveeee :D
and and and.. dont worry too much okay
you know my situation is far worse then yours
dont complain.HAHAH.
yupps! i'll be that GREAT FRIEND for you too(: 11:04 PM